I feel we’re so consumed by the chase of that ideal future-self. That future-self that is always elusive, ever evolving, and always two days out of reach. That chase can be quite stressful.
Reading over his website, I found this quote from him…
“My two last mentees are living very, very, very well and I am personally responsible for their success.
I do not sleep. The members of my current program know this well. Try as they may, they can not keep up with me. I lead by example. I am a finisher.”
That is motivation. The freakin dude doesn’t sleep!
is the source of your biggest inspiration, the same thing that keeps you awake until 3am working on weekends. It’s also sometimes the largest source of stress you can have. The same stress that makes you wonder, “what is it all really worth?”
Another night, another movie.
“Trust in dreams, for in them is hidden the gate to eternity.”
Some crazy dreams lately.
-The color white
Many of them revolving around the major themes of my persisting thoughts.
“If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. If they don’t, they never were.”
— Khalil Gibran
Same damn thing my dear old ma told me last winter.
I’m ready to press my lips to the sky and kiss destiny.
I’ve waited too long clip independent from the need to be tied into the networks and social structures outside of my own. It’s time to build my own foundations and take life the way I want it, not the way it was prescribed by someone else.
Ideally in the next month I’ll either be between DC and Cali, or DC and a country in the Middle-East to be announced in the next month…. 🙂 I will feel truly accomplished to know I played a role in the rebuilding of a nation – while my baby project, http://www.globalmarketfoods.com gets ready to launch within a few weeks.
I was in a mosque, on the second level, of what seemed like a fire escape. The lower level was crowded, it was one large carpeted area below. Prayer had just begun and there were loud clapping sounds from outside. This caused confusion on the inside and people were speculating as to what was happening, then someone suggested it was gun fire which struck widespread panic and fear to the constituents below. I was on the second level with maybe a another person or two. Then the front door swung open and armed gunmen ran in with assault rifles and begun firing on everyone below me. I realized they were firing rubber bullets however. Everyone hit the deck. Then I woke up. Scary.
Yesterday for the first time in my life I had ‘sleep paralysis’, where you become conscious during REM sleep, are in an awakened state, but your body still cannot move. This lasted atleast 2 minutes, also scary stuff.
Getting closer, I can feel it. Not because of the following, but the following is interesting.
Ibn Seerins interpretation of seeing a “car” in your dream, which I seem to see regularly – I alway end up boarding a form of transport and arriving at a destination. This is almost verbatim from his book
“In a dream, a car represents someone who properly manages his life, for a car is made from many well coordinated parts, and carries many things and transports them from one location to another. If one sees himself riding a litter that is carried by people in a dream, it means that we will preside over people or beget a son who will be elevated in rank. If a traveler sees a car in his dream, it means that his trip will take a slow turn and he will be delayed. A car in a dream also signifies dignity, honor, advancement, and attainment. If one sees himself holding to a car or running after it in a dream, it means that he will lobby someone in authority and profit from him as much as nearness to such a car. If one sees himself riding on a cargo vehicle in a dream, it means suffering from distress and sorrow.”
-Ibn Seerins Dictionary of Dreams